phew. where should i start?

i seriously hate it when as nicely as any high class posh high flying restaurant would serve chocolate fondue (OR ANYTHING YOU COULD DESIRE EVEN MORE) off a silver platter, someone has to keep coming back to you and show their dogged persistence and do everyone else a disfavour. mannnn... compromises. that should be struck off my pissed mood dictionary.

okkk. now for the nice parts.

finallyyy went back to do zoo keeper-ing after suddenly canceling the plan to and just stay at home and rot and rest on a cough that is over 3 weeks old - since wednesday already. the day commenced with everyone getting over excited at Azijan's departure - one of the pygmy hippos. it was a really cool thing tho. i'm sure wherever that fella is now, he's probably loads happier after having been through a longggggg confinement so that he'd grow less attached to his companions. now i know 3 weeks later probably won't even mean a thing.

during lunch, cheryl allowed me to check out my ns posting on e com at e keeper's rest area. i'm thrilled yet a little hesitant about being thrilled. i mean... i did what i did to get what i wanted for certain reasons... but i wasn't sure if i was truly happy. maybe it's just this stupid bout of illness... its been sapping me dry. now the only thing that will probably destroy all i've worked for is THAT. haha.

had to start flying in all directions the minute i left for home and left home. smashing in last few songs for the dance and doing a little clean up if possible - i still left a whole lot of songs back at home which i am so happy that casey and shem supplied at the death. kudos to them. flew down to bugis. walked in circles (literally) before i finally managed to get directions from gill who was so kind to help me find glowsticks (which i didn't get enough of... SORRY!) and then finding i had no money from eating ben&jerry's ice cream and the taxi ride around. so i flew to the nearest atm to find a queue of 10 pple infront of me. 10!!! i should sign up with a less popular bank. haha. desperate i had to wait. then i finally managed to get sherman's and my dinner before flying all e way to church. reached before 7. wow. got so wound up about the songs that i panickedlucky the real programme hadn't started. altho there was still a major screw-up when marie's com suddenly blanked. heh. my fault. and lucky casey was there mannn. lifesaver. speaking of which... i feel like getting some lifesavers.

oh. and thanks for the dances! (:

there u go. one crazy friday and my last for a long while spent in plain clothes.

being sickkk apparently ruins everything. 3 weeks already and this bug of a cough-sorethroat-fever(died down already)-flu(gone) is still... well... bugging. can't even talk without coughing after every few words. dieeeeeeee. i blame it on tekong. haha. at least this bug that causes me to become half-a-mime with a twitching lizard up his throat hasn't stopped me from at least doing the bare minimum in trying to save an otherwise wrecked leave.

dinner with morning clique @ Astons was lively thanks to the always loud Gabrielle and Debbie. and Jesse always fiddling around with stuff - this time it was connecting straws - and somehow as normally expected Gab and Deb found ways to thoroughly entertain themselves and everyone else with it. Felix was ordinarily fashionably late. so ha-ha. and then Jesse made some waves at Ben&Jerry's at Raffles.

Share with me the blankets that you're wrapped in
Because it's cold outside, it's cold out side
Share with me the secrets that you kept in
Because it's cold inside, it's cold inside

And your slowly shaking fingertips
Show that you're scared like me so
Let's pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don't care

Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible

I was born to tell you I love you
Isn't that a song already?
I get a B in originality
And it's true I can't go on without you
Your smile makes me see clearer
If you could only see in the mirror what I see

And your slowly shaking fingertips
Show that you're scared like me so
Let's pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don't care

Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible

Slow down girl, you're not going anywhere
Just wait around and see
Maybe I'm much more ,you never no what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone, I can be anything

Just because you were hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone, anything
I promise I can be what you need

Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
And I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible

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i'm feeling a WEIRD sort of misdirection.

feelings. twisted. somehow what happens in others life - no matter how indirect - seems to always take a toll on oneself. the choices we make can either bring happiness or misery even when we least expect it with others even when they're probably the ones who always make u smile. love definitely isn't painless. but it's worth protecting and everything.

heh. someone's gonna come along and tell me i'm emo-ing.

first lesson. finally. locking really is soup-per fun.
went with lulu this afternoon @ oschool to catch up a little and go for e lesson too. haha.
back to camp later tonight again and POP! :D