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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

alright alright. no more getting flustered over all that. i'm done. volleyball is e word. dance was cool, but... fine... there are sometimes things need to be let go of to pursue another path. my public apology to my friends who have decided to stay at dance for leaving them. Joy, LuoEr, Geraldine, Jonathan & Lynette... SORRY! i'd love to take up both dance and volleyball, but i've made my choice... and its just not dance.

yep. tat's right. i'm gonna be alot more tanned than i am alr.

another day has passed. i have to live by reality. i have to live through everyday. i've got no guts... period. no. tat's not right. i dun wan to approach e matter and screw up and go into depression and serious thought all over again and again and again. but if i dun do it... i never will. *argh* i'm so dead confused.

so this was how it all went. ended sch. met up with Geraldine. she had lunch while i ate nth as i wanted to save money. so we left for e dance room as soon as she got chged. did warmups. ran 4 rounds... or was it 5 rounds? anyway... it was a short distance ard e quad. Jonathan was commenting on how e J2 dancers were so unfit. haha! i second that. warmups consisted of wad everyone normally has. only difference was e part when they made us go into split positions. alright alright... for us guys... its half splits. we're just not so flexible... all e gals made it look so easy! We wanted to celebrate Fathers' Day.

introductions took place. i can only rmb my SJI seniors' names and some others... and then Ryan e dance instructor came along to choreograph and teach us our SYF item. he dint even have an idea what sort of genre it was... it was one word... weird! e song was really not one most wld have come across. i dun tink u'd have any idea either. no one did. it was enjoyable but not as much as volleyball... i'd tend to think. little interaction with anyone else except between my 5 other friends and me as mentioned earlier. Ryan was getting all angry and started scolding e club's members for not putting their soul in e dance and not tryin to... for just messing ard. seriously... i dun tink anyone did.

rushed down to volleyball and gave everyone my word. i'm stayin and tat's final! i love my services. i'm gettin loads better. oh shoot... there's hmwk to do and i havnt even started 1 bit. tat's e same as 1/8 byte. haha! sorry... being lame.


Sunday, January 28, 2007

Does my playing really sound as though its off a CD? everyone'sbeen telling me that. well... thanks alot for all e support andcompliments. really... i wldnt have played that well without everyone behind me. e musical wldnt have been a success withouteveryone else. On Friday & Saturday nite, Greatness beyond comprehension came abt owing to e spirit felt by all. it wasnt a one man show. it was all of us in on it together.

E musical was a BIG SUCCESS!!! the spirit really was strong during e performances which were scheduled @ 7pm & 830pm.Kandace & Kelson got mugged by everyone in grp hugs which werereally really huge. Not to mention Sis. Evelyn & Bro. Lee. i tink there were many others...

we had a testimony meeting before saturday's evening shows. there was a large buffet spread laid out for dinner before that.e meeting was really really emotional... almost everyone startedcryin and tearin. My eyes got a little red and watery too! *sobs* it was during e testimony meeting that everyone really pouredout their hearts' feelings of such a gr8 experience. still... i'm sure there are bound to be more wonderful experiences that the Youth of the Church will have. Youth Conference is comin up! nowtat's one thing i'm really lookin forward to during e june hols. alright alright... mayb tat's a little too long a wait... but i havnt heard of any other stake youth activities comin up...

thanks again to Gabby, Beve, Jesse, Yang Wei, Kelly & Kathleen forcomin to watch e musical. hope it was a real eye opener for u all! oh... and i had a little ice cream with Gabby, Beve & Jesse @ waffletownafterwards before taking bus home.


Saturday, January 27, 2007

went for a little bit of volleyball training and washed up for dance auditions and e result was tat now i'm...

caught in e middle. i cant believe it! i went for Dance Auditions tinkin i dint have one chance in getting in and actually made it. We had to follow this choreographed hip-hop dance done up by e dance instructor. Jon, Candice, LuoEr, Joy & Lynette made it too! (well... those are e pple i know) and i say! Jesse shld have made it. He did real well! ... now i have to tink of which CCA to commit to... volleyball or dance? seriously i dun care if they're successful or not. fun is the word.

had a chat wif LuoEr and Joy on e bus ride on my way to church after Dance Auditions. YESTERDAY's performances were gr8! i confess that i flopped on Kandace's solo on e piano since very few pple knew e slight difference. SO SRY KAN! well... it was a real rush for me. I had to run in and out of the act and chg quickly or miss my part and stall everything. but otherwise... it was GR8! oh and thanks for comin Kelly! haha!

performances later @ 4pm, 7pm & 830pm. its gonna be as hectic for me. gotta run!


Monday, January 22, 2007

my physics lecturers are twits...

shit. they're so damn boring and their speech is a laugh!

so everyone simply doodles and doodles and doodles somemore on their lecture notes... sleeps and sleeps and sleeps on their lecture tables... tat's jus life during a physics lecture. i wish SJI and CJC switched physics teachers... Mr. Chin's lessons were so much more damn fun.

Mr. J let us play badminton for PE today. tat's gonna be e schedule for e remainder of our PE lessons for e term, and to think PE sessions were out to kill us. Mass PE isnt tat bad. Its actually enjoyable. Maths lectures and tutorials are slack. topics we're learning kinda straight forward as long as u know how to do. Ms. Chia's been pressing me to join American Maths Competition just because i do well at Maths. I dun wanna go for e trgs! such a waste of time for a certificate...

i'm getting real tanned. i tink i have some sort of natural sun tan lotion on my body... HAHA! unbelievable? this is just the result of 2 volleyball trgs per week. u wait till e end of season and i'll show u how much more i've tanned myself through trgs. crap. now i'm afraid i'll get skin cancer.

LYNETTE! volleyball is fun right?
u shld have joined gal! stop entertaining urself with e thought of joining ODAC!
Haha! i dun tink u'd wanna run 5km every morning... i'm sure.


Saturday, January 20, 2007

...the world shouts...

...but there's no sound...

...ur presence drowns...

...even the cries of this child...

its been another day. i'm so confused. wadeva it is. i hope it comes to a close and a straight unwinding road. its been gr8. but i'm all funned out.



...the world shouts...

...but there's no sound...

...ur presence drowns...

...even the cries of this child...


Thursday, January 18, 2007

this is reality. utter madness. a swell time @ CJC. e anti-climax of it all was that i've got a 'dead' physics teacher who tinks everyone is completely dumbfounded by physics. Eugh! anyway, computing is becoming more fun cuz i only started really understanding e programming bits. LOL and CRAP... i cant download e compiler provided. too lazy to go search.

i'm in CJC volleyball and i'm lovin every bit of it. e pple there are so nice and its real fun. alright alright, we get a few knocks... but so what? its gr8 fun. bad me. i've forgotten more than half e team's names. haha!

we've been snacking e whole time in class on chocs... and i'm still hungry for chocs...

Eugene, Rod, Xiao Wei, or whoever in class... bring more chocs! xDDD


Monday, January 15, 2007

some things have been quite a bang e past few days. there was e IG gathering which i do not think was too bad although we were stuck indoors @ Veronica's place due to prolonged rain. yeah... it was real disgusting to just stay indoors, but its otherwise ok. Anyway, i'll see to it personally that e next one RAWKS!

Last friday was e 1st day new Stake Centre Open House. They said there were like 1000+ pple over e 2 days. Saturday was e second day. Performed Kandace's solo with her @ e open hse on friday only for e VIPs. She sang so well... and as usual... i did not do as well on e piano. Saw Bro. Mike and Bro. Paul @ e open hse. My ex-VP and current principal. so cool.

at least there was Church Youth Musical Rehearsal to look forward to. another practice session. 3 hours gone by like that. Pure fun, it might be work... but its FUN!

so i had lunch with Joshua, Brian, Germaine, Ariel, Crystal, Amanda, Shem, Shemnon & Kenneth @ Newton Food Centre. Had one small plate of Hokkien Mee. E food there isnt half bad. Its actually quite good!

Left for Ngee Ann Poly to meet Erika, Jordan & Ivan. E carnival or 'carnival' was so dumb! it was so pathetic that it was housed within like an area half e size of e CJC canteen, or less. so apparently, we all got really really bored. Basketball came next on e menu. We played @ e basketball courts @ Ngee Ann Poly till ard 530pm. Good training for Basketball tryouts this coming wednesday! haha! Well... Ivan left early and then Yang Wei came... but eventually we got bored... again! haha! Everyone voted on going home...

Ngee Ann was e place we all celebrated Jordan's Birthday. Alright alright... it was one day late, and Yang Wei was actually so nice as to come down and grab some cake for Jordan on her way fr CJC ODAC trg. We kinda celebrated Jordan's Birthday on a small scale. Least he got a birthday wish... haha!

i do not really know wad happened... but we all pranked Jordan and... somehow some rumors were fuelled tat day... haha!

alright alright... time for some shameless advertising. here's e download.
when? 26th Jan 07 (730pm & 9pm), 27th Jan 07 (4pm & 7pm & 830pm)
where? just meet me @ Newton MRT at best so i can bring u there...
what? LDS Church Youth Musical proudly presented by The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints

P.S. i would like to remind some pple that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints... otherwise known as Mormons... are not a cult! We have e same beliefs as other Christian denominations... so can u label christianity as a cult then? This would mean... all those poor millions of pple are also being misled... no religion is a cult unless u preach wrong things. By no means am i proselyting or anything... so u have no reason to convict me. I'm jus stating a fact.

alright... moving on from that... to 2dae! hmmm... alright... 1st day of real lessons is here. *moan* *groan* wadever! How nice... i got saboed to become GP rep for 1T18. had 1st PE session today. we only did 20% of what we would normally cover in mass PE. So yepyep! its gonna be a killer.

hung out with... Eugene, Shi Yu a little after sch before I started talking to Lynette. She was waiting in her canteen for a friend who did not answer e phone and left before she did. so... there u have it... 3 hours talking to her... mind u... not alone... tat was for e 1st hour only. Then... Crenshaw & Joy & Erika came along and we started playing cards in sch. Saundra, Delvy, Audrey, Eric & some others whose names seem to escape me joined us later after Joy & Erika left. learned how to play shithead & dirty germs when we had to call each other by their chosen title according to a theme (forgot e name of e game! >.<) from Crenshaw. It was so comical! Lynette was calling me Lynette one round... while i was calling her Benji! haha! Crenshaw was called Erika... and Erika was called Crenshaw! HAHA!

oh... and its kinda funny... but i'm in CJC volleyball for e time being. haha!

alright... i'd better stop or my eyes will come out of their sockets. SQUIRREL! shall now retire to his tree. Benji out! (for those who are still blur... its jus e same person)


Thursday, January 11, 2007

first day of lectures and lessons today. it was kinda boring except for e incidents tat happened where some pple made a fool of themselves.
met e members of IG 31 after sch. haha! wore Lynette's white hairband. everyone kept saying i looked lyk some girl. gosh! anyway... had IG gathering @ Veronica's place. 10 pple went (not counting Veronica cuz its her own hse)... Lynette, LuoEr, Yang Wei, Elton, Kenneth, Kevin, Jordan, Meng Hon, Henry & ME(not too bad!) was chaffeured fr CJC to her place. WOW! her hse is SO BIG lahh. we all were lyk... wow... wow... wow... (everyone taking turns to say it). had a VIP tour ard her place. her room is lyk 3 or 4 times my room lahh. so COOL!
Elton: Veronica shld have a water bed...
Veronica: I'm not tat rich!
*everyone laughs*
Jordan was saying if we rented a room... all of us cld jus stay there...! it was so darn cool!
watched Emperor's New Groove, when i kinda recited some dialogue and everyone was lyk laughing. so we all chatted somemore cuz to our disappointment it was raining. alright alright... it stopped a little and we all chilled ard e pool outdoors. e chairs in e pool were so COOL! gosh... and they also have a mini grand piano! haha! played a little twister afterwards before we all left to serene centre. after tat... i walked Lynette to e bus stop so tat she might take 855 home. took bus home wif Yang Wei afterwards.


Monday, January 08, 2007

another day of orientation. everything changes. we've been split up from our orientation grps *sobs!* and now we're all in classes. IG 31 will be missed. at least we'll still have fun together when we organize our outings here and there. xDDD

1st day of seminary. woke up @ 505am. toasted a slice of bread for breakfast. had 2 glasses of water to go with it. Got down in time to get a ride early to seminary. my last year in seminary lehh! well... at least officially...

Played a little basketball @ church before going to sch. Got there @ abt 7am. e class listings were out. i'm in 1T18. Class is dominantly guys. period. 16 guys, 2 gals. haha! cant expect an even class when its a sub combi wif computing huh? Played some icebreakers early on before stepping into class for e 1st time. teacher or home tutor as they call it is Ms Chia.

filled out some forms before heading to audi for mass dance. Ivan was looking ard for his dance partner Erika. Sadly, they cldnt find each other. Was checking if Annabelle was ard so tat she might partner me again, but i dun tink tat was possible anyway. She wasnt there! Was paired up at random. So my dance partner for today was Natalie. Had a long long break afterwards as e other half of e cohort had their mass dance. Was so bored tat i started to play a little piano.

lastly... i wld lyk to thank u for today. i tink i wld have lyk u said... slaughtered myself because of wad had happened. i shall not talk more abt it and leave it to e past since u will, but i know it isnt gonna be easy. jus thankful tat i've been forgiven! PEACE! xDDD

-----NOTE!-----
1st IG 31 gathering is @ Veronica's place this thursday after sch, tink we'll meet @ e piano lyk today again. cld have been on wednesday so tat we can celebrate Kevin's bdae, but there's a long long programme on wednesday lasting till 8pm? Ending off orientation wif a finale... BANG!


Sunday, January 07, 2007

if u ever are able to read this...
i wanna tell u how sorry i am...
how i'll be willing to turn e clock back for any price...
i nv meant to hurt or do anything to a negative extent...
will u forgive me?

p.s. i'll crawl on all 4s and beg u even if u dun listen...


Friday, January 05, 2007

smile at e birdie ladies&gentlemen

...now for wadeva u have in ur magic hat...

today was a little sickening yet fun...
had a special tour by Kevin our facil around e whole campus, with his lame jokes as usual. then... i felt kinda sick. dehydrated, problem wif breathing. felt worse during e mass dance due to sth. LuoEr was so nice to accompany me. Well... she cldnt do much cuz she had a bad ankle since e start of e orientation. So we sat in a corner listening to music. Most of songs picked by LuoEr were Disney. She was constantly repeating how cute and nice e songs were. I have to agree! haha!

MUDBATH! we started rolling in mud forming words and played some game called dota after? pulling pieces of cloth from behind pple. we also played this game where six of us were blind folded and had to find our shoes, slippers and stuff back on e field. It took a long while to wash off all e mud on us. Esp, Anabelle, Kevin & me. Lastly, we all made a splash at e pool. This was all done at e old police academy opposite CJC.

Afterwards, we headed back to CJC for e CCA bazaar. signed up for basketball and dance? haha! i really have so few choices. then we headed back to e audi and took a few grp pics and parted. took a half empty 985W home. *yawns* so sleepy...

Church youth musical rehearsal tmr! ciao for now! SQUIRREL! out...


Thursday, January 04, 2007

nice dancing today... haha! xDDD

wad is up wif everyone else man? wad lucky? we 2 jus happen to be more exp dancers tat's all...

i was really really very shag 2dae cuz i dint slp well @ all. i'd better get as much out of tonite. tmr's e last day of orientation wif my orientation grpies. Have compiled everyone's contacts in black ink, threw away e other copies. tmr i tink its gonna get even more wet than it was 2dae. it was hardly wet! well... mayb if u count out e facils... it wasnt so wet. E facils got dunked wif buckets of water. Elton wasted our bucket! next time u better make a proper splash!

chose our subject combis 2dae. played this game where we were ties to each other @ e wrists and had to dig into this bucket of sick solution and had to pull out some beans. played this link game, where we all had to move in 2 rows wif our palms together. e back 2 kept moving up. picked sweets with our mouths from plates of flour in a telematch. soaked e facils later... played a telematch where we held hula hoops wif one finger in a grp through some obstacles.

since i was kinda shag for e day... i was really lethargic. everyone kept saying i went pale during e games. got some color back by trying to cheer myself up more. was so tired i nearly slept @ e corner. only to be stopped by e grp facils, Kevin&Fiona.

Oh... tmr's CCA day. er... tink i'll take dance. haha! groovy day! oh... veronica slapped me awake too... LOL!


Wednesday, January 03, 2007

...my 1st day @ CJC...
...my 1st orientation day @ CJC...
...IG 31 rawks! e pple are real sweet...

alright... so e day started out lyk this. we all moved into e audit (tat's wad they call it) started talking a little wif my grpies. 1st person i started to talk to in my grp was... er... Anabelle? haha! tat was when we all were having icebreakers. We were playing entaglement. Yeah... so we were all messed up holding each others hands. Yeah... so i was holding hers on one hand, so we started talking lorr. Everyone started talking to everyone else soon after. LuoEr was such a poor thing! She had to half-hobble&half-walk to move ard. wad was more, she cldnt participate in e physical activities. Said she fell while running and there was something jutting out.

Later on, we all had a short break @ e canteen. Dint eat cuz i wasnt hungry. Went back up to e audit. Listened to some sub combi talk by e HODs and Bro. Paul, e principal. After tat one-and-a-half hours talk, we moved towards e bball courts and volleyball courts to play captains' ball and dodgeball. This is where IG 31 really showed everyone! They crushed e opposition in e games. I smashed 2 dodgeballs @ e other team. Wow... i dun realize i used so much strength... haha! but where's e fun in dodgeball if u dun whack hard...?

Went for this game body extension when we played real good teamwork. E objective was to cross e hall on pieces of paper. We had to go in one line across. It was all so retarded! Then there was mass dance. My dance partner was Annabelle. xDDD She's real gd @ all this cuz she was in dance when she was in MGS? So cool lahh... xDDD

another break @ e canteen. went back up to e audit to make orientation shirt orders and pe shirt orders. started collecting orientation grpies contacts. We only have 3 days together... so sad! *sobbs* haha!

its really been one gr8 day. wished it dint end. hmmm.... mayb they shld organize it such tat we can slp over? haha! tat wld be alot more fun... xDDD oh... met my meii, terrie @ CJC. dint expect her to be there. And HAPPY BDAE BRENDAN!

SQUIRREL! signing out...


Monday, January 01, 2007

2006 is up and outta here. How saddening... all those memories and blahblahblah etc,etc,etc. kk... now i'm imitating those stupid racoon like animals on Madagascar. Haha! 2006 was e year i graduated from SJI. 2006 was e year i ended watching Herbie. Haha!
Out with e old and in with e new, tat's wad they always say. One of these coming new(s) are e church musical nights, 26th&27th Jan. Timings: 730pm, 900pm(26th)&400pm, 700pm&830pm(27th).
Alright, so here's e download. Spent new year's wif e woodlands ward pple watching movies all night... or morning. Watched 3 movies in total. 2 of them were more of reruns, namely Pirates of e Carribean: Dead Man's Chest&Madagascar. Yepyep! Pretty much a rerun of movies. Oh well... Prata for breakfast, coupled along with 2 Packets of DARS chocs! Ohno! i've gone mad. xDDD

Haha! Kandace was... so retarded lahh, as her catchphrase is anyway. Haha! Twitty Myra! LOL... xDDD
Wonder where i left my specs... ops >.<>
Oh! Tat's right. Its e new year. Ure supposed to lose things. Happy New Year! xDDD


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mushi mushi?
my name is benji. really benjamin. but i prefer benji/benjy all the more. i have a convenient birthday - the 7th of november and oh no i'm 20 this year.

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han
inspired from... feelings. haha.
inspired from kandace's lonely tree photo
inspired from playing piano and dancing
kandace
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arrangements PROPERLY done up include:
everything - michael buble
here without you - 3 doors down
bad day - daniel powter
love story - taylor swift
wedding dress - taeyang

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angel in disguise - corrine may
try - asher book
kiss the rain - yiruma
you belong with me - taylor swift
hey soul sister - train
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